Morale Dilemma!

I love my mother and I also love weed.

But here is the problem. I spent 99$ on an affiliate marketing program which turned out to be too expensive ( note - I am without a job)

i.e 6500$ in total being a jobless indian for 10yrs. 

So I opted out and claimed the 99$ back a refund which is around Rs. 9000.

My mother wants her money back since I borrowed it from her. She is a cancer patient low on funds.

Now there is a close friend of mine - David who got an offer to purchase weed for Rs. 5000 which would be my share.

So I was thinking that I would tell my mother that they are not refunding the money back.

But my mother is a cancer patient and how can I do this to her.

I wanted to give her back the whole amount. But that would be a loss for my weed dreams, my last chance to a long wait to get the finest weed.

This is a dilemma and I am wondering what decision to make.

In 2 days me and my friend will be able to purchase good quality weed provided I give the money today.

I also thought that instead of giving her the full amount of Rs.9000, I could give her Rs. 4000 and use the remaining money.

But the money has not yet come back into my account from the vendor.

The dilemma will be after the money comes back into my account.

The right thing would be to give her the whole refund back so that she doesnt loose her faith in me.

But my relationship with my close friend David will suffer.

Ultimately I will have to let down someone.

This shows how life can be sometimes.

Thanks if you'll get the time to read this post.

regards

Avinash